Checking In

Still plodding along, and I do mean plodding, athough I just recently feel as if we’re picking up the pace around here.  Change is in the air.  I can taste the shifting sea winds.  For one thing, I am pretty determined not to work at my current job as of the new year.  I really want to find a job that is truly part time, like 3 days a week, tops, with no extra after-work hours.  And I don’t mind if I take off some time before I do that.  It is one of those things where my gut knows that everything will be allright and I feel like I need to rip the rug up from under me, knowing that I will land on my feet.  It may not make sense financially, but it makes sense emotionally.

We went on a vacation recently to Colorado to stay with parents, and, stripped down to my rawest fibers, which always seems to happen with my first family, I realized my nerves were pretty fried from trying to hold it all together the past year.  I kind of had a melt down served sunny side up with a panic attack on the side.  There were two, nonconsecutive days there where I pretty much cried all day.  The smallest thing set me off and it was out of nowhere, or so it seemed.  I realize I had been bottling up a lot of stress accumulated from trying to juggle the elusive work/life balance.  And I am worn thin.

Also, I’ve been doing this life coaching program, via telephone, where I participate in a weekly call with 5 other "students" and one coach.  We focus on goals and promises and maintaining integrity by keeping promises to yourself, positive intentions, the law of attraction and cultivating positive change.  In any event, this got me thinking about a lot of things and mainly helped me to realize that the status quo is simply not acceptable for long.  More on this later, as I am tired.

One of my goals is to provide at least weekly updates here, so I"m not going to belabor the content, just get something down.

Adios.

POSTED BY Administrator ON 08.19.08 @ 6:25 am |

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  1. “It may not make sense financially, but it makes sense emotionally.”

    Listen to your soul ~ it will be your most honest guide. Sounds cheesy but is so true. The best thing I ever did for my emotional health (and, therefore, the health of my family) was quit my job. Yes, our financial situation is not the greatest. But oh how quick that becomes second fiddle.

    Now I’m not saying every mom/parent should not work and then they’ll be happier. But that’s what my soul was saying to me. I listened and pulled myself out of that hole.

    I’m glad to hear about you posting more. :) Though I’ve become kinda’ slack.

    Cute pic - that boy is a heartbreaker.

    Comment by awake — August 22, 2008 @ 6:38 pm

  2. there is a time to work. a time to play. a time to work a little and play a little. and a time to sit around and watch your little toddler tear up the joint.

    i am on a I’m Over Staying at Home Kick. And at the same time i feel blessed to be bossed only by Mia and not some other entity.

    you always listen to your heart and your gut. i so admire that in you.

    i am with you with a melt-down sunny side up and a panick attack on the side. shit. it’s the hottest trend on the streets these days. whats up? warrior women always trying to keep it all tied together, neat. we need to unravel too, fall apart at the seems, tear at the cuff, melt in the center…and then…weave ourselves back again.’

    i really miss you. when you take that time off, will you come visit me????

    mb

    Comment by mb — August 24, 2008 @ 4:34 am

  3. my girl - you will find a way to make it work if you leave. I think you have a really good problem - you know you want more time with E. You know you like working when it is stimlating and makes sense and you are talented enough to find a fit that works for you time wise. You also have time. I am proud of you for realizing that it is time to make a change and for letting your self make it. you will be more than fine. that said, i miss you. really bad. love your words post too. xo

    Comment by Daisley — August 26, 2008 @ 1:01 pm

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